Monday, August 13, 2007

Feelings

Day in day out without a doubt, I don't know what to do

no love respect or passion, do I ever feel from you.

I cook and clean and care for all, my work it never ends

and when ones feelings do get hurt, it me who makes amends

I get up in the late night hours, so you can get some sleep

I do this out of love for you, and try to keep the peace

My body now is not so young, and tired I do get

I hide my pain from all to see, lonely tears I've alone wept

It seems you do not see me, for the person that I am

Always I am telling myself, I can, I can, I can.

There is no meaningful talks, or a loving gesture

all that fills my heart, is sadness that does festor.

My life is feels so empty, no happiness do I see

I want to crawl in a corner, and there be left to be.

For you it may not matter, like nothing is wrong

It is always me, who has to stand there being strong.

The strength is slowly leaves me, no more can I now do

what happens next with all of this, is now left up to you.

 

written by: Cindy L. Sawn  August 2007

 

 

Monday, March 19, 2007

Campfire Music

Campfire music

Crackling of a camp fire
upon the earths dirt floor
warming are the flames
cold not anymore
loved ones gather round
this fire that they built
young ones they are sleeping
upon a handmade quilt
a guitar it plays softly
music flowing to the sky
another day now ending
sleep comes with a sigh.

Cindy Sawn

Copyright ©2007 Cindy Lee Sawn

MOM

Mom

In memory of my mother

It's been many years
since I saw you last
the memories I once had of you
one by one their fading fast

A few remembered memories
ones I hold so dear
are the ones I sit beside you
and your holding me so near

Why did you have to leave me
I really want to know
I was too young to be alone
why did you have to go.

Cindy Lee Sawn

Copyright ©2007 Cindy Lee Sawn

Ocean Dreams

Ocean Dreams

Lying in my bed
falling fast asleep
memories in my head
dreams I do seek
deeper do I fall
in a soundless state
dreams I recall
not wishing to wait
dream after dream
one after the other
no end it may seem
no words do I utter
rushing like the waves
a warm and sandy beach
made of memories you gave
ocean dreams to far to reach

Cindy Lee Sawn

Copyright ©2007 Cindy Lee Sawn

Sunday, March 18, 2007

Can I?

Can I run from all of my yesterdays

that eat away my inner being

Can I hide from all of my yesterdays

where no hurt will I be feeling

Can I make the pain of my yesterdays

vanish sooner then tomorrow

Can I take the memory of my yesterdays

thrown deep for the earth to swollow

Can I take the darkness from my yesterdays

along with the hurt and feeling of not being loved

Can I let myself forget my yesterdays

open my soul to let the hurt fly out above

Can I live all of my tomorrows

knowing what I really want to be

Can I see all of my tomorrows

with feeling I am now free

Can I make all of my tomorrows

free to live with no more pain

Can I be in my tomorrows

never going back to yesterdays again?

Written by: Cindy L Sawn    March 2007